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Pilt ‘óm uhr sur zantdæ [24 Jul 2008|12:08pm]

avanti
Zærčiŋ vô hít sur hít, ler
cevôcet vêrdō cró ólt —
luviŋ víólentmrn, čøín clanziŋ märc
nácætnessdæ v’áč eil, práciŋ indō pézjx.

Hriŋclcex líx cetel
de jêx thentédrè uv malcuntent a
zuvócášun; cex patliŋ hà ser
tr zærvezdæ uv zcin cevluš.

Pál a pærvect, ler zmaš inč evout uv
cônær evout eil nôrdō mác ‘ómín
uv rupišdæ, hâ ler can zlép
ulónmrn. Ly, ler cehôm d’eþjx šarp.

Tríviŋ cutjx tép indō pŏntréx eil,
claz a metæl vôč pÿtè ciŋín hōz
zilóet cezlác de ztärín zcí-cepærč,
šriŋciŋ sunc contōrjx nehmrn ‘evè eil.

Révlecšænjx cepatærn il mác čénjusín
a ler cezpil ‘ét surdō armjx eil nôr qi
íx cólten eil rátéátlou untærztandiŋín
šalò — cečar a crumpliŋ.

Đa, vec ‘álónì hî cepûn, ler välò
paddæx entnon cetrív dicmrn indō váz eil;
cetévôm a ceplut, ler zet íx eil egens
imačdæ de lerselv a rest.
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Jeito [23 Jul 2008|05:47pm]

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Vegan transition is coming along nicely. It's more expensive, but that's because the quality of the food is better. I figure I can drop a few extra bucks if it means safeguarding my health. It's not always easy though; non-vegan food is so abundant and convenient, especially when I'm working. There's only one place in town (that delivers) whose food I can feel safe eating. The problem is, although it's delicious, I'm getting mighty tired of Chinese-American food. I need variety, which is lacking in this town. In a way, it's a good thing though, because that means I have to prepare my own food, which is always of better quality and cheaper (than eating out anyway). Ok, maybe not always. But often.

My romantic adventure has not yet left the ground. Not for lack of trying, but it doesn't seem like it'll be going anywhere any time soon. I didn't stake much hope in the prospect, but I thought that maybe if I put myself out there a little more I would reap something more than, well, nothing at all. So far, however, this is not the case. I can't say that I'm very upset though. Because I'm moving soonish, it would be imprudent to get involved with someone on any level who doesn't plan on leaving Mt. Pleasant in the near future. And I don't think I'd want to do a long-distance thing again.

Urgency is a motivating factor though. I got a wedding invitation in the mail today, addressed to "Christopher Wiesman and Guest." I don't want to be the only person who doesn't bring a romantic interest to a wedding. I mean, in the real world, no, it isn't that important that I stick so closely to protocol. But it's a damns wedding! I can't go alone, which is what I normally do. Well, that's not true. I usually friend some platonic girlfriend to accompany me. Isn't that pathetic? It's more than just a wedding though. It's one of my good friends, one of the gay trio from my first years here at Central. I always expected that we'd be getting married around the same time. That's obviously not going to happen, but it would be nice if I weren't so far behind in life. Ho-hum.
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Do I fail?? I don't feel like I failed at all.... [23 Jul 2008|09:19am]

teckie4lyfe
[ mood | happy ]

 So, about the apprenticeship....


I quit. 
I was there for three days.  
It was kind of a joke. 

I expected a "backstage apprenticeship" to be, you know....backstage.  

But instead when I got there, the first thing i learned is that we take out everyone's garbage firs thing in the morning. 

...um...what?....

Also in the job description; 
answer phones
take orders for tickets
sweep sidewalks
shovel snow (make sure to get there early!)
scrub toilets

oh, and sometimes assists the stage manager or technical director.  but that seemed only true if it didn't interfere with office duties. 

These people didn't say "good morning".  They barely fucking said hello.  One of the girls that works there, I got her cell phone number and called her when I was locked out of the building on my first day before other people got there (I was ON TIME.)  and when I saw her later I said "Hi, I'm Edna, I'm the one that called you cuz I was locked out of the building this morning, but it went to your voicemail."  

Her response; "Oh,....yeah....I saw that a number had called that I didn't recognize, so I just didn't check it.  haha."  

Wow...that's fucking professional.  

The technical director was cool as shit.  I hope that I get to work with her at some point in the future.  
....she doesn't do office work...and she purposely doesn't know how to use the office software on the computers for ordering tickets and managing seating.  haha.  

So, the first day I was there, I said to myself "Man, this kinda sucks."  

THe second day I weighed my options; Stick it out in a place I don't like, or go back to Target.  That night when I got home, I crunched some numbers, and found that with spending 120.00 a week in just gas alone, plus parking and just other shit, I would have been over spending what I made by 400.00 a month.    At Target I only over spend by like, half that, AND there's the possibility of making more money.  I can get more hours, or raises, or promotions. And I get insurance. It was clear what needed to happen. 

So the Third day, on my way to the apprenticeship, I called Target.  I asked HR would the situation would be if I wanted to come back.  She exuberantly said "COME BACK!  We haven't even terminated you yet!  Yes! Come back!"  So I finished out the day with the theatre, and peacefully said my departing words at a meeting...that they pulled me out of rehearsal for.

And I'm fricken happy.  I love Target, I love the people there, and I love how everyone is always trying to help you better yourself, the store, and each other.  It's more like a team...and not so much like a hierarchy.  

Yay Target!  haha

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Jeg gå hjem [22 Jul 2008|12:44pm]

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And I'm officially over summer. We've only had, maybe, a couple weeks of truly summery weather, and yet. I was thinking the other day that I probably wasn't built for this kind of climate. Literally. I'm too fair skinned to be on such a low latitude. That seems silly, I know, because Michigan is a relatively nothern place. But that's just not good enough for your truly. I think I could learn Norwegian. Pretty easily too if I lived in Norway. Or Svalbard.

This all sounds jocose, but I'm seriously considering it. It's not that it's too hot here, although I do hate that too, just that the intensity of the sunlight here is greater than it would be if I moved farther north. This is dangerous for those of us who are light-skinned. I don't want to look sixty when I'm forty, and I most definitely don't fancy getting melanoma any time soon. Who knows what I'd do with French there though. I guess I need to consider this more. Still, in ten years, you could be sending me letters in Norway. Kanskje.
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ŗóŵariĉ [21 Jul 2008|10:37pm]

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Âshöw kam ì ŗelâ ýú þar ì çrilâ âluŵ ù?
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I've gots crabbies [21 Jul 2008|07:49pm]

mypoliticalove
Pet Store Update....

I found a whole new level of irritation... working with teenage--21ish girls. (FEMINIST OF THE WORLD PLEASE DON'T SEND ME HATE MAIL all 21 year olds have drama I just happen to work with all girls) Now I know that at some point, actually, not that long ago, I was one of these girls but it's easy to forget once you think you're all grownded up. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA... Its all the all drama all the time show and I'm not kidding. Boyfriend issues, parent issues, hating your other co-worker issues, sex buddy issues and a whole lot more... and for some reason they want to tell me their whole life story in the first 5 minutes we meet... I just smile and nod while thinking did I really act like this? and I quickly remind myself that I did act like that. Then I entertain myself with some other amuzing vision, like jumping up on the counter and singing coyote ugly style... its really quite amuzing.

Other than that I deal... I want to smack me some children about 100% of the time I'm working. "NO YOU CAN'T HOLD THE KITTIES BECAUSE YOU F-ING ANNOYING THE CRAP OUT OF ME AND ARE TERRORIZING THE STORE.. OH AND BY THE WAY YOU ARE FAT TELL YOUR MOM TO PUT YOU ON A DIET AND LAY OFF OF THE DAMN MCDONALDS!" But I'll survive b/c the animals are way cool and I came home with some really freaking awesome Hermit crabs that munch on veggies and dig holes and cool shit like that.


Medical update...
Still passing out but its a lot less so maybe just maybe (knocking on wood) the drugs are starting to work. Regardless I'm going to the specialist in toledo b/c as the cardiologist said even just passing out once a week is really abnormal and I pass out about every other day now. Hopefully I can avoid a pacemaker although if that will just end this disaster then I might just be willing to do it. Although that would mean some life changes like no roller coasters or arc welding, whatever that is, good thing we are going to cedar point this week with my Dad and his family. Not sure I'm medically ok'd to do that but I'm going to see how it goes.

ok I'm watching me some Law and Order SVU and watching the hermit crabs dig.

Tschuss
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Pirl [20 Jul 2008|07:10pm]

avanti
I fell asleep amid the flowers
for a couple of hours
on a beautiful day.
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Fighting Ilunga [19 Jul 2008|09:56am]

avanti
Ok, so let's talk about being home.

I actually kind of love my parent's new house. I was unsure about their descriptions of it over the phone, but actually, for once at least, they weren't exaggerating. I can't vouch for their sense of interior design, but that aside, it's almost perfect. Well, while I was there I kept thinking it was perfect for me, but I know they feel the same way (for themselves) too. I think one of the nicest things about the place is the huge yard that leads to a lake. I mean, space alone is whatever, but being directly on a lake keeps the place incredibly cool, especially at night. I think that means I need to live on a lake some day too.

Seeing my family was, as usual, a mixed bag. I can appreciate their company, but I have a hard time relating to them. This time, though, instead of tramping off as quickly as I could, I hung around for most of the days and waited until evening to go out and do stuff. Actually, I was there for five days and I only went out twice, so go me. I saw Will and Rachel & Matt separately, unsurprisingly, because they still aren't able to hang out in a group. Hurt feelings and all that. Will and I went out for dinner and a drink at a couple places whose names I forget. I think Will and I have come to a good place in our friendship, because the time spent together felt as unlabored as it would with any of my other friends. This is definitely a change from high school, or even a few years ago. I wanted to go to his bonfire on Saturday, but I ended up staying out too late to do so.

I saw Rachel a few times, once with Matt in tow. It was nice, most of the time, and I appreciated her patience with my dad, who can get on her nerves quite a bit. However, I don't think, as she implied, that her quiet goodwill was that much work. I have, after all, met her family, and I know how trying they can be. Still, I was glad she came over and spent time with me at the house, since my parents would've been unhappy with me leaving each day that I was home. So, she came over and had dinner a played Mancala for a little while.

I should go back for a second. We also hung out on Saturday, Rachel, Matt & I. In lieu of having to be creative, we went to Friday's (to no one's surprise) and to see Hancock. Hancock was pretty good, a little expected, but (mostly) worth the money spent. Let's, however, talk about Matt for a moment. He seems nice and inoffensive. That's all I can really say though, since he barely spoke at all the entire time we were all together. I thought that maybe he was nervous, and he probably was, but first impressions, you know? I'm not going to see much of him, as Rachel's new bf even, because this I live so far away, and soon, I'll be even further. It's not like high school where we could all hang out every other day, so this first meeting was, I don't know, crucial. I know Matt is better for Rachel, but he does lack the flare Will brought to our lives. Well, flare, chaos and frustration might be more accurate. I don't dislike Matt, per se, I just wasn't able to get a read on him at all.

Tuesday I came back to Mt. Pleasant. We were supposed to leave at 2am, which was an ill-conceived idea from the start. I knew that neither of my parents was going to get up that early, nor did I want to myself. Instead, my mom woke me up at 6 and she & I went alone. Savanna & my dad were apparently upset by this change of plan, but they were both sleeping anyway when we left. And besides, Savanna said she didn’t want to go and my dad, despite being awoken by my mother, didn’t say anything about wanting to come along. So. Besides, I always feel like I spend more time with my dad while I’m home than I do with my mom because he’s needier. This was time well spent too. Pretty much the whole way home I had her tell me stories about my family, things I hadn’t heard before. And, as it turns out, my family — people I don’t know, that is — is pretty interesting. I was unaware that my grandpa was a Mason, that a great-grandpa was an opera singer, that a great uncle was the international president of the Iron Cobra (or something like that), which is a biker gang, and that a different great uncle owns the deed to Liberty, Mississippi. Oh, I forgot to mention that my patrilineal great-grandfather was a member of the KKK before becoming a pastor at a black church. I was surprised I had never heard any of these facts before. Apparently, though, given both of my parents storied childhoods, these kinds of things are not as interesting as they seem.

I’m happy to be back in Mt. Pleasant. I always leave my parent’s place feeling a bit melancholy and nostalgic, and I look forward to getting back to my normal life. One day at a time though.
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Two Nyangis [18 Jul 2008|07:29pm]

avanti
Do you know how many people misuse the words blatant and flagrant? Well, do you?

Apparently it's a lot of people.
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The meaning of Mahj [17 Jul 2008|01:01pm]

avanti
When I was visiting my parents, I found an English dictionary from 1929. I had to persuade my parents to give it to me, and I'm glad they did, because I love it. I'm probably one out of several hundred people who would enjoy this kind of find though.

But still, it makes me happy.
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Ondinnonk [16 Jul 2008|09:29pm]

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heaven is the ultimate and most perfect state humankind can hope to achieve: our own need for absolution through suffering and our final ascension into grace. It is the quality of grace and the abstract notions of contrition and forgiveness that serve as the driving forces. This way, we might come to understand how we ended up in the dark wood and eventually achieve oneness with g-d. Tormented, rejected, embittered, and denied even the knowledge of that which is happening on Earth at the moment, we are dependent upon our respect toward g-d after we have been sentenced to an lifetime of damnation. There is neither escape nor respite from hell following condemnation, so it is up to the soul to choose how he will comport himself there. Still, with all the powers of heaven in his arm, he would only win a small satisfaction from us.

hell is a cavernous descent into the center of earth, whereas purgatory is a mountain. The souls of purgatory are motivated to reach the top after purging themselves of their sins. But purgatory is only a transitional phase, a mixture of night and day, a place where the eyes of the envious are sewn shut. We are in the City of Dis, waiting to be lead away, shielding ourselves from the freezing winds. It is this isolation that confirms the heartlessness of each person. We can only imagine a partial state of rejoicing that leads to indescribably happiness.
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Reat-reot [15 Jul 2008|09:32pm]

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Le sigh. I would like to actually write something this time, but I'm tired. So that's going to have to wait. Hopefully tomorrow I can share some of the craziness of the last few days. Well, controlled craziness.
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Shh, Lagerolarpok [14 Jul 2008|09:51pm]

avanti
Have you ever had one thing that was too complicated to put into words? I’m experiencing that now, and it’s frightening.
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Home is where you hang your Ricuh [13 Jul 2008|11:30pm]

avanti
I was so close to missing today's entry and thus ruining my plan to update for a year through. But, Allah be praised, I have a half hour to spare.

Of course, I don't have much to say, being that I'm so tired. I will say this though, my parent - family really - is not as bad as I often complain/think they are. When I let myself go and just enjoy their company, they're actually pretty ok.
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Mr. Tubli [12 Jul 2008|03:38pm]

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Like I figured, there is no readily available internet here. So I’m typing the next three day’s entries on my computer, and instead of posting them on LJ immediately, I’m going to have to backdate them.

A day has elapsed since I came to my parent’s new house, and I can safely say that I’m ready to go home. Not that I don’t love them—I do—but they are really good at making me a little crazy. Plus, for some odd reason, I actually miss sleeping in my own place, no matter how small it may be. Here, everything is decorated the way my parents like it ( = tacky) and I have to try to both be entertaining and not spend the entire time in my room. This is a challenge. Actually, right now I’m catching a little reprieve in my bedroom, which has lasted uninterrupted for about twenty minutes. Well, uninterrupted until I typed those words. It seems my mother wants me to carry some buckets downstairs for her. I guess I don’t mind helping out, and thankfully my parents haven’t asked me to do much, but this is supposed to be like a vacation for me. No such luck I suppose. Anyway, I’m only here until Tuesday when they’ll be taking me back to Mt. Pleasant. Although it’s going to be tough, I think I’ll manage. But there’ll probably be a lot of complaining along the way.

The house is beautiful though. I think it’s the perfect size/shape for how many people are living here now. And it seems to be in the kind of neighborhood my parents have always dreamed about living in. Thank god for the slumping economy then, otherwise they wouldn’t have been able to afford such a gem. Well, the economy and somebody else’s misfortune. But as I’ve heard it told, the guy who lost this house is actually doing fine now. So, it all works out in the end.

I probably should go help my mom now before she has a mini-fit.
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Arbeit, Ich [14 Jul 2008|07:38pm]

mypoliticalove
I got a job... and the no-drive version of Meg can walk to it. Yippee... I'm feeling more and more like teenager begging for rides to the mall each day. I will now be working as a cashier at a Pet Shop in Old Town Lansing... oh joy of joys. I'm hoping I can manage to not pass out in front of customers as that would be the source of much embarrasment.

I kind of neglected to mention to my prospective employers at my interview that I have some wierd diagnosed/undiagnosed heart & Blood pressure problem that causes me to faint two times daily. But Meg needs Job, so Meg Gets job, and they didn't ask so I didn't offer ;). I usually pass out in the afternoon or late evening and I usually feel it coming on. So, I'm going to try to do what I do at the law firm and make a mad dash to the bathrooms when I feel funky. It seriously looks like someone has been beating the shit out of me b/c I'm covered with bruised reminders of my fainting escapades.

Anyhoo, I've decided to stop taking the Steroids for good. All they do is make me fat and give me headaches, major headaches. Plus I watched something on TLC the other day about someone who had to take the same steroids they put me on (florinef) and she gained 100 pounds in like 6 months. That's when I was like hells to the no. I'm still passing out so its not helping and I don't want to deal with side effects for a drug that doesn't work. Plus if I gain 100 pounds we'll be looking at major mental health issues (meg hates fat meg) plus the worsening of my Endometriosis. (Fat holds a shit ton of estrogen that the endo loves to use to build its pretty little lesion scupltures on my organs.) And god knows I'm no fun when the Endo montsters are holding parties in my uterus.

Moral of the Story Just say no to steriods! unless you are a major league baseball player then just say yes and lie about it later.

Sara has her MCAT on friday in Mt. Pleasant so if I don't work I might be in Mt. P. to hang out with any of my friends who are interested there. (chris!) I misses you!

Batman in less than a week!
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Shash-andaz [11 Jul 2008|07:22am]

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So I'm going home for five days to visit my family. I don't know if I'll be able to update every day online, but I'm bringing a paper journal that I can write in each day and later post the entries backdated. Although not ideal, I don't think it violates the spirit of my original plan to update for a straight year through.

I can't say I'm too excited about visiting them. I feel like that sounds horrible, but every time I see them, I become their live-in servant. And now that they've moved, and thus have a thousand projects they're working on, I can already feel this is not going to be the vacation I had hoped. Angie's driving me there, which isn't surprising because my parents have a hard time getting their acts together when it comes to picking me up. All the better though; I'd prefer to ride with her and it's cheaper for them anyway,

Speaking of anyway, I have to finish getting ready. Bye all.
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